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I had three exams today, and I didn't do well enough in any of them. Tomorrow I have a Japanese oral that I am going to fail, even though I have thought about it before hand, because speaking in an exam paralyses me with fright. In fact, speaking with teachers in general, or really anyone that I know speaks English, makes me feel horribly awkward and nervous. It's a debate, I have no script, I'm going to forget all the points I've thought of. I'm talking about LITERAL fail here, I really will. And I've got an essay due on Friday and I have to rewrite the whole thing because it SUCKS and I don't have all my research done yet.

And I can't stop crying and I just want this week to be over. Fuck, I want this whole year to be over, I'm never going to do well enough in uni. I just want to give up.