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[tammaiya]

I had three exams today, and I didn't do well enough in any of them. Tomorrow I have a Japanese oral that I am going to fail, even though I have thought about it before hand, because speaking in an exam paralyses me with fright. In fact, speaking with teachers in general, or really anyone that I know speaks English, makes me feel horribly awkward and nervous. It's a debate, I have no script, I'm going to forget all the points I've thought of. I'm talking about LITERAL fail here, I really will. And I've got an essay due on Friday and I have to rewrite the whole thing because it SUCKS and I don't have all my research done yet.

And I can't stop crying and I just want this week to be over. Fuck, I want this whole year to be over, I'm never going to do well enough in uni. I just want to give up.

Comments

[-leareth.livejournal.com]

You will not fail. Sure, you might not do as well as you wish you did, but you will NOT FAIL. You're too smart for that and from what I gather your idea of a bad performance is another student's envy. You will be FINE, because at the end of the day the most important thing is to pass the unit because then you never have do it again and you cna progress to next year where you're wiser and more experienced, and you will definitely do that.

*hugz* catch me online if you want to rant. As a law student at the end of the degree, I'll completely sympathise and happily complain with you :3

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

Thank you. *hug* I've talked to you already over AIM so you know it's all sorted-ish now, but still, thanks. *heart*

[nefthoron.livejournal.com]

Right.

Take a deep breath, step back, and look at it all again.

Did you do as badly as you thought you did? Likely no. I bet you did absolutely fine.

Don't give up, whatever you do. You might feel better for a week, maybe two; but then you'll spend the rest of your life wondering what you would have made of yourself had you gotten the degree.

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

I doubt I'll ever actually quit uni. I'm just a very highly strung person, I have these breakdowns about once or so a term. And then my mum doesn't help (although she means to) by suggesting I drop school/uni/whatever. ^^; It's also not good that I put such high standards on my self. Like, with Japanese, I don't think I've done well enough if I haven't got above 80. Which is STUPID, really, but it's the way my mind works and I can't stop it. >.>

Thank you for the support. I'm much better, now the oral is over. *hug*

[etrangere.livejournal.com]

breath. Don't panic. Trust in your abilities. If you're going to fail, well so be it, and I'm sure you'll be able to find something else to do, because you're bright and smart and capable. So don't worry too much, just go and do it, for the pure pleasure of using your mind and knowledge.

That's all the advice I can give you. I'm not too good at studies either >_< but most of the time it was the not doing thing because I was panicking that screwed me over. And all the things I actually did, I had some actual good grads. So I do think it's always worst trying. Doing your best, even if it's not perfect and you don't think it's good enough to pass.

*hugs*

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

*hug* Thanks, dear. I feel a lot better now; I think I did okay in the oral, and the essay is almost done. I'm on holidays after this is finished, even if I DO have to do assignments in those holidays. So thank you for being there, all you guys helped calm me down. ^^

[shirann.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Good luck! It gets better, really. ;_;

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

*giggle* Thanks, Shir! Really this is nothing new for me, I was like this in year 11 and 12 too. I just have a complete spazz-out about once a term. XD

[shirann.livejournal.com]

Aw. Well, I hope that you feel a bit better now...

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

Yep, I've just finished the essay, so as soon as I hand it in I'm officially on holidays! *joy*

[shirann.livejournal.com]

YAY! *dansu*
Gyah, essays suck the most.

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

I think Japanese orals suck worse, actually. XD

[shirann.livejournal.com]

Oooh.... yeah. Definitely possible. XD! (Yours went okay, though, right?)

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

Hopefully. Wasn't a complete screw-up, anyway. ^^;

[shirann.livejournal.com]

Awesome. Well done! ^^

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

Sankyuu! :D

[terr0rflare.livejournal.com]

Sioriiiiiiiina!!!! *HUGS* We're here for you! You're doing absolutely brilliantly at Uni anyway! You will be just fine. In any case, remember, Pees Makes Degrees! As in... P... Passes... Not Pees, as in, ugly throbbing penises. XDDD;;;

We're going to have to get together these coming holidays, methinks ^__^!!

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Siorina! *glomp* And YES. As soon as I finish this essay I am on holidays zomg. Doing something would be grand. Anime fest, perhaps?

[terr0rflare.livejournal.com]

That's AWESOME!! Unfortunately, I still have 2 essays to do in 3 weeks that I've only started on today! Good luck with yours! Hopefully we can have an anime fest/"data transfer" fest at the end of the year?! @_@;;

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

I have two essays in the two week holidays, too, but I'm trying not to think of that. >>; End of the year it is! Are you feeling better-ish now, or still in stressed-feeling everything-is-crap mode? *hug*

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

Sounds like a grand plan! That'd be way fun. :D

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

Hey. I wish I'd been around to offer some comfort beforehand, because I know that by the time I catch you it'll all be over. But I believe in you!

Baby!

*squishgoolimpets*

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

Not all over but at least I calmed down. *cuddle* And it's okay, I went offline pretty much straight after posting this anyway.

[kokusekiryuu.livejournal.com]

Wo-ah, slow down, calm down~ *hugs gently*
That's pretty harsh to set 3 exams in a day! :O Of course you wouldn't do greatly if they just chuck all this assessment or whatever it is all in a block/same day!
HOW DID ORAL GO? Dun feel so bad! I bet you did well! You're always good at orals (or as far as I can remember anyway) and you're AWESOME at Jap! (like, awesome awesome, better than me is a great start^^)
Take a DEEEP breath darling, essay will go fine^^ Even if it doesn't, it can't kill you. (I hope, I mean, dun really understand uni stuff)
*GLOMP!*

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

Thank you, sis. *cling*

Am not better than you at Jap. Kanji, maybe. XD But I don't think the Jap oral went too badly. Jap orals are my weak point, I usually screw them up, and I can only think of a few little things like slipping into plain form once or twice and messing up a little with grammar. So I think I probably got at least a Credit. I can live with that.

Essay is going much better now, just doing footnotes and bibliography and edits. Thank GOD. *glomp*

Also, by the time you see this probably mari will have mentioned that we're considering me sleeping over saturday and going to see your shakespeare fest sunday if it's convenenient for you and eri. that is, if she remembers to ask. XD

[kokusekiryuu.livejournal.com]

Good job!:)
hmm, we have a student teacher right now for Jap, she ahs a really strange accent...I dun even think it's a dialect or anything like that:P heh, my jap is going weird coz of her:P

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

Heeeeeeee. Oh well, at least you don't gender bend like I do? It's not even that I don't KNOW which forms belong to which gender, I just automatically swap them sometimes. XD

[kokusekiryuu.livejournal.com]

lol!
But seriously, the teacher didn't know the difference between the 'science' kagaku and the 'chemistry' kagaku O.O she's like, no! kagaku is not chemistry! and we're like, depending on the kanji you use, it is! haa...

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

Oh, they use different kanji? That makes it all a lot less confusing. Well, sort of less confusing. I've only seen one set of the kanji, so I just assumed they were the same.