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Sep. 13th, 2007 07:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tammaiyaSo okay, I feel a bit awkward about this-- which is weird, isn't it? it's partially what a diary-type medium is for and I never used to have this problem-- but radio silence isn't helpful.
The thing is, I'm being kind of a colossal fuck-up at the moment. Well, alright, "colossal" is total drama queen hyperbole; it just kind of feels that way and also, I like the word. But anyway, I digress. The point is, in the grand scheme of things, I haven't screwed up my life. My diabetes control has never been bad enough to land me in hospital, I'm in the degree I want to be in, my marks are fine and I have awesome friends.
Now. That out of the way. At this precise MOMENT, I am being a fuck-up. By which I mean currently, my eating habits are kind of horrible, my sleeping patterns are truly atrocious,* my BGLs are shot thanks to a combo of these two things, I haven't done any reading since the beginning of semester, I can't make myself do anything productive like write or work on the two assignments that are due next week (one is a research essay) and I'm being almost entirely anti-social.
And for these things-- mostly for that last-- I apologise. They'll fix themselves up (I hope) because this isn't exactly the first time I've totally lost my shit like this. For the mean time, I'm sorry for being a douchebag.
Anyway, I'm taking off comments because I've been a total failure at answering them recently and it is making me feel ENORMOUSLY guilty. I'm slightly better at emails and much better at IMs right now (answering them, at least, if not initiating them), so if you want to contact me for whatever reason that's probably the best way.
*Addendum: For example, on Tuesday/Wednesday, I went to bed at 7-7.30am and had to get up at 10.30am for the dentist. Yesterday/today I went to bed at, mm, 6-ish, and got up at 3pm which is kind of horrifying. It's 8.30pm and I'm at work and tired and wondering if this is hanging over from yesterday or oversleeping today. Argh, I fail at life, or at least at this semester.
The thing is, I'm being kind of a colossal fuck-up at the moment. Well, alright, "colossal" is total drama queen hyperbole; it just kind of feels that way and also, I like the word. But anyway, I digress. The point is, in the grand scheme of things, I haven't screwed up my life. My diabetes control has never been bad enough to land me in hospital, I'm in the degree I want to be in, my marks are fine and I have awesome friends.
Now. That out of the way. At this precise MOMENT, I am being a fuck-up. By which I mean currently, my eating habits are kind of horrible, my sleeping patterns are truly atrocious,* my BGLs are shot thanks to a combo of these two things, I haven't done any reading since the beginning of semester, I can't make myself do anything productive like write or work on the two assignments that are due next week (one is a research essay) and I'm being almost entirely anti-social.
And for these things-- mostly for that last-- I apologise. They'll fix themselves up (I hope) because this isn't exactly the first time I've totally lost my shit like this. For the mean time, I'm sorry for being a douchebag.
Anyway, I'm taking off comments because I've been a total failure at answering them recently and it is making me feel ENORMOUSLY guilty. I'm slightly better at emails and much better at IMs right now (answering them, at least, if not initiating them), so if you want to contact me for whatever reason that's probably the best way.
*Addendum: For example, on Tuesday/Wednesday, I went to bed at 7-7.30am and had to get up at 10.30am for the dentist. Yesterday/today I went to bed at, mm, 6-ish, and got up at 3pm which is kind of horrifying. It's 8.30pm and I'm at work and tired and wondering if this is hanging over from yesterday or oversleeping today. Argh, I fail at life, or at least at this semester.
