A post of random things.
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tammaiya* Oh, insomnia. I'd call you an old friend except it's a relationship of mutual hatred, so whatever. There are an exciting array of causes for insomnia; muscle pains or other discomfort, inability to switch the brain off, simply not being tired, some form of external irritation like heat or noise or light, or there's always my personal favourite, ABSOLUTELY NO REASON WHAT-SO-FUCKING-EVER. Or there's when you're so tired that your eyes hurt even when they're closed, which sucks all the more for the irony. XD; And sometimes one is just an idiot who doesn't have the willpower to make themself go to bed for their own good. The point of all this is I have been having a very sleep deprived... uh... IDEK, I don't remember when this run of insomnia started. Month, shall we say. Although I'd say it's better now at least than it was before I started back at classes, because that was insomnia with no reason and even waking up when I got to sleep which is incredibly annoying.
Last night my trouble getting to sleep was based on a variety of factors; my back and shoulder were hurting (still are in fact ><;;), I couldn't switch my brain off (fic, LJ posts, game blogging...), and music which usually helps me sleep was annoying me. Also, I will admit to an element of idiocy and starting the process of attempting to sleep later than I probably ought to have.
Oh well, whatever. I'm still conscious, I got to class relatively on time and remained alert throughout, I'm pretty sure I'll survive work tonight, and those are the important things. Having had insomnia on and off for my entire life, it's easy after awhile to develop a philosophical approach; this, too, shall pass.
(Er, no advice, please. I get enough of that from my family. I prefer to just let it blow over by itself; ignoring it works best for me. I just felt like bitching. *g*)
* Speaking of fic, all this Tales gaming is giving me a vague urge to fic. Except I am pondering this urge deeply, because there's practically no market for English fic in any Tales fandom except like, Symphonia. Oh, and Abyss these days. Not that this has ever stopped me before, but my vague inclination to write 5 Things Spada Will Never Admit To Thinking About Luka hasn't gained enough motivation yet, and anything I might write for Symphonia at this stage would require evaluating my own moral bankruptcy (Everyone who's ever read my writing: ... and you haven't had to before? *DISTURBED*) so eh. Gameblogging would probably win out in a pit fight at this stage, assuming I got the motivation to write anything. XD
* One of the things that annoys me very much about my bathroom is the lack of storage. Actually, that annoys me about my room in general. But ANYWAY, the point is, there are no shelves or cupboards or drawers in my bathroom. Spare toilet rolls sit on the floor, toothpaste and so forth has nowhere to go but the top of the toilet, etc. There is a towel rack on the wall, but it's too small for my towel-- and also the last time I hung a towel up in that bathroom it went mouldy, so no thanks.
The upshot of this being that when I have a shower or bath, I have to remember to take my towel in with me. Sometimes I forget.
Sometimes, like last night, I forget and leave my towel hanging on the clothes line on the balcony.
I suppose I should be thankful that a. it was the middle of the night and b. the towel pretty much blocked everything, but goddamn, I was wet and it was cold. And I dripped on my floor, too.
THIS-- okay, I can't say never, sometimes I forgot to hang my towel back up in the bathroom and left it in my room, but-- RARELY EVER HAPPENED WHEN I LIVED IN AUSTRALIA, DAMMIT. ><;;;;
* On book 40 of Mirage. I may have mentioned this before. In fact I probably have because I got up to it about a week ago and haven't touched it much since then due to being distracted by games, too tired to concentrate, etc whatever. I will guiltily admit that last night I skipped a chapter of plot to see what Naoe and Takaya were up to (I always go back, except for those Oda trauma books which I initially did intend to go back and read properly but then ended up skimming my way through about four whole volumes in search of an end to my suffering). It was a very satisfying forward-skip, I have to say. Last I saw them they were in this Heavenly Pillar, AKA Heart Pillar, which is essentially the record of all Japan's history back to pre-historic times.
Meg: ... C-Cephiro?
Me: *tries to scrub that analogy from her brain, fails*
Essentially everything ever experienced, thought, felt by anyone in Japan is contained within this pillar. It was opened by Oda in his quest to replace Amaterasu and the rest of the Shinto kami as a god, and Takaya and Naoe went into it to chase after him. Don't worry about that, it's long and complicated and would take hours of backstory to explain. The important thing here is the pillar, and Naoe and Takaya's presence within it. They lived through some memories-- I say memories, but they're not necessarily their own. The battle of Nakagawajima, when Naoe was a young soldier but Kagetora was still with the Houjyou; Kagetora's acceptance into the Uesugi clan, which Naoe wasn't present for (although his father was. He viewed that memory through the eyes of his father); a memory of the Uesugi castle; etc etc. They weren't all personally connected memories but those were the ones they were subconsciously drawn to, so.
Anyway, that was where they were when the POV changed and I skipped ahead to find out what would happen with them. They got separated and Naoe got pulled into Kagetora's childhood from about the age of 6-- as Kagetora. The way these "records" work is that you don't just view them, you live through them, including the thoughts and feelings of the person whose eyes you see it through. So in the earlier scene with Kenshin giving Saburou then name Uesugi Kagetora, Takaya was hearing his own thoughts from that time and Naoe was hearing his father's thoughts. Now, obviously, Naoe is hearing young Kagetora's thoughts. So he watches as Kagetora grows up and is all, aaaaaaaaw, BABY KAGETORA <3 about it, but then the whole thing leads up Kagetora's rape at the age of 15.
I thought that Naoe had figured it out in general terms back in book 20 when they first slept together. I was actually a little disappointed at the time; I'm kind of a revelation whore in that one of my favourite things in fiction is the build up and reactions to a secret being revealed. With couples it's things like finding out the other person is secretly in love with you or, actually more often, finding out about some kind of issue or trauma or something they've been hiding; with groups, it's finding out a couple are secretly dating or that someone is secretly rich/famous/royalty/a god/whatever. I love that kind of stuff. So when it seemed like there wasn't going to be a big reaction back in book 20 I was kind of let down. Like waiting with anticipation for the other shoe to drop and then nothing happens.
But it seems Naoe DIDN'T make that leap of logic before, and I was very satisfied by finally getting the kind of reveal/reaction I was looking for. Also, one can't help but think this would have saved them so much crap if someone had made Naoe go through that in like, book SIX instead of book 40. But I guess that would have been boring. Way more fun with all the buildup. XD
*pauses, looks back on that sentence, thinks of all the rageful screeching she's done at mirage over the last 40 volumes* ... fun... yeah... I always knew I was a masochist...
* Is there anything anyone wants to see photos of? And I mean things or places that I have a day-to-day connection with like Ikebukuro or whatever, so please don't say, I dunno, Roppongi. Or Hokkaido.
Last night my trouble getting to sleep was based on a variety of factors; my back and shoulder were hurting (still are in fact ><;;), I couldn't switch my brain off (fic, LJ posts, game blogging...), and music which usually helps me sleep was annoying me. Also, I will admit to an element of idiocy and starting the process of attempting to sleep later than I probably ought to have.
Oh well, whatever. I'm still conscious, I got to class relatively on time and remained alert throughout, I'm pretty sure I'll survive work tonight, and those are the important things. Having had insomnia on and off for my entire life, it's easy after awhile to develop a philosophical approach; this, too, shall pass.
(Er, no advice, please. I get enough of that from my family. I prefer to just let it blow over by itself; ignoring it works best for me. I just felt like bitching. *g*)
* Speaking of fic, all this Tales gaming is giving me a vague urge to fic. Except I am pondering this urge deeply, because there's practically no market for English fic in any Tales fandom except like, Symphonia. Oh, and Abyss these days. Not that this has ever stopped me before, but my vague inclination to write 5 Things Spada Will Never Admit To Thinking About Luka hasn't gained enough motivation yet, and anything I might write for Symphonia at this stage would require evaluating my own moral bankruptcy (Everyone who's ever read my writing: ... and you haven't had to before? *DISTURBED*) so eh. Gameblogging would probably win out in a pit fight at this stage, assuming I got the motivation to write anything. XD
* One of the things that annoys me very much about my bathroom is the lack of storage. Actually, that annoys me about my room in general. But ANYWAY, the point is, there are no shelves or cupboards or drawers in my bathroom. Spare toilet rolls sit on the floor, toothpaste and so forth has nowhere to go but the top of the toilet, etc. There is a towel rack on the wall, but it's too small for my towel-- and also the last time I hung a towel up in that bathroom it went mouldy, so no thanks.
The upshot of this being that when I have a shower or bath, I have to remember to take my towel in with me. Sometimes I forget.
Sometimes, like last night, I forget and leave my towel hanging on the clothes line on the balcony.
I suppose I should be thankful that a. it was the middle of the night and b. the towel pretty much blocked everything, but goddamn, I was wet and it was cold. And I dripped on my floor, too.
THIS-- okay, I can't say never, sometimes I forgot to hang my towel back up in the bathroom and left it in my room, but-- RARELY EVER HAPPENED WHEN I LIVED IN AUSTRALIA, DAMMIT. ><;;;;
* On book 40 of Mirage. I may have mentioned this before. In fact I probably have because I got up to it about a week ago and haven't touched it much since then due to being distracted by games, too tired to concentrate, etc whatever. I will guiltily admit that last night I skipped a chapter of plot to see what Naoe and Takaya were up to (I always go back, except for those Oda trauma books which I initially did intend to go back and read properly but then ended up skimming my way through about four whole volumes in search of an end to my suffering). It was a very satisfying forward-skip, I have to say. Last I saw them they were in this Heavenly Pillar, AKA Heart Pillar, which is essentially the record of all Japan's history back to pre-historic times.
Meg: ... C-Cephiro?
Me: *tries to scrub that analogy from her brain, fails*
Essentially everything ever experienced, thought, felt by anyone in Japan is contained within this pillar. It was opened by Oda in his quest to replace Amaterasu and the rest of the Shinto kami as a god, and Takaya and Naoe went into it to chase after him. Don't worry about that, it's long and complicated and would take hours of backstory to explain. The important thing here is the pillar, and Naoe and Takaya's presence within it. They lived through some memories-- I say memories, but they're not necessarily their own. The battle of Nakagawajima, when Naoe was a young soldier but Kagetora was still with the Houjyou; Kagetora's acceptance into the Uesugi clan, which Naoe wasn't present for (although his father was. He viewed that memory through the eyes of his father); a memory of the Uesugi castle; etc etc. They weren't all personally connected memories but those were the ones they were subconsciously drawn to, so.
Anyway, that was where they were when the POV changed and I skipped ahead to find out what would happen with them. They got separated and Naoe got pulled into Kagetora's childhood from about the age of 6-- as Kagetora. The way these "records" work is that you don't just view them, you live through them, including the thoughts and feelings of the person whose eyes you see it through. So in the earlier scene with Kenshin giving Saburou then name Uesugi Kagetora, Takaya was hearing his own thoughts from that time and Naoe was hearing his father's thoughts. Now, obviously, Naoe is hearing young Kagetora's thoughts. So he watches as Kagetora grows up and is all, aaaaaaaaw, BABY KAGETORA <3 about it, but then the whole thing leads up Kagetora's rape at the age of 15.
I thought that Naoe had figured it out in general terms back in book 20 when they first slept together. I was actually a little disappointed at the time; I'm kind of a revelation whore in that one of my favourite things in fiction is the build up and reactions to a secret being revealed. With couples it's things like finding out the other person is secretly in love with you or, actually more often, finding out about some kind of issue or trauma or something they've been hiding; with groups, it's finding out a couple are secretly dating or that someone is secretly rich/famous/royalty/a god/whatever. I love that kind of stuff. So when it seemed like there wasn't going to be a big reaction back in book 20 I was kind of let down. Like waiting with anticipation for the other shoe to drop and then nothing happens.
But it seems Naoe DIDN'T make that leap of logic before, and I was very satisfied by finally getting the kind of reveal/reaction I was looking for. Also, one can't help but think this would have saved them so much crap if someone had made Naoe go through that in like, book SIX instead of book 40. But I guess that would have been boring. Way more fun with all the buildup. XD
*pauses, looks back on that sentence, thinks of all the rageful screeching she's done at mirage over the last 40 volumes* ... fun... yeah... I always knew I was a masochist...
* Is there anything anyone wants to see photos of? And I mean things or places that I have a day-to-day connection with like Ikebukuro or whatever, so please don't say, I dunno, Roppongi. Or Hokkaido.
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