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Mar. 10th, 2009 01:22 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tammaiyaI passed year in japan! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!! After a year of stressing out over the research paper (and to a lesser extent the interview, which I had on Friday), I've been told that I've satisfied course requirements, no resubmits or anything. \o/ I think I often forget that the standards I apply to myself are much higher than the standards imposed on me by others; I was seriously worried I'd fail, but the lecturers seemed quite pleased with the level of my work and when I was like "I PASSED!!!" at my parents they were like "... was anyone ever in any doubt of that?"
Me: ... YES, ME.
Anyhow, this is all very relieving and lifts my spirits immeasureably, although right now I'm kind of in a weird stasus-like state where I've been dumped right into the middle of a lot of surprisingly work-intensive courses (especially surprising when I haven't had to work very hard to maintain high grades for a year, excepting that period of insanity engendered by the research paper) but I haven't quite gotten that sense yet because I still haven't managed to attend that many lectures and it's all just... quite surreal, really. So I'm vascillating between watching truly disgustingly copious amounts of jdramas and wading through my VERY EXTENSIVE READINGS.
Which, uh, I need to catch up on property. But property is not, in fact, the issue here. The real work comes in the form of Advanced Readings in Japanese Law (a Japanese course) and Japanese Law & Society (a law course). The latter has a lot of reading and requires a lot of participation on the discussion board which I haven't quite got my head into gear for yet (the discussion board, the reading is fine); the former I won't manage to make a lecture for until next Monday, and requires an AWE-INSPIRING amount of preparatory work, especially for a Japanese course. I'm more comfortable with reading than a lot of Japanese second language speakers are, not to mention I'm a law student, but I kind of wonder how some of the other students-- particularly non law students-- are coping with the preparatory research homework requiring the location of a particular Japanese Act of law followed by translating a provision of own choice and then answering a series of thirty-something questions on it, considering how difficult and time-consuming *I* was finding it.
More to the point I am having trouble browbeating my sleeping patterns back into submission. And procuring Skip Beat; I am having ENORMOUS difficulty with that thanks to the overall uselessness of torrents and the inavailability of direct downloads.
Meanwhile I need to stop writing this entry because I totally know I'm just procrastinating from my reading. ANYWAY.
(On a side note, ASK ME ABOUT MY NEW OBSESSION WITH THE FIRE EMBLEM MANGA. ... or maybe don't.)
Not an ETA because I forgot to hit post anyway: I actually forgot the entire procrastinatory point of this entry, which was that, Japan, as much as I love you in many ways and wish to go back, the result of my readings can only lead me to one conclusion, i.e., YOUR LEGAL SYSTEM IS SO DYSFUNCTIONAL SDJKFLJSDKLFRJSDKLF FIX IIIIT.
Actual ETA, albeit several seconds later: Also, all this reading about prosecutors and their poor cousins, the attorneys, is making me want to read Phoenix Wright fic. Um. :/
Me: ... YES, ME.
Anyhow, this is all very relieving and lifts my spirits immeasureably, although right now I'm kind of in a weird stasus-like state where I've been dumped right into the middle of a lot of surprisingly work-intensive courses (especially surprising when I haven't had to work very hard to maintain high grades for a year, excepting that period of insanity engendered by the research paper) but I haven't quite gotten that sense yet because I still haven't managed to attend that many lectures and it's all just... quite surreal, really. So I'm vascillating between watching truly disgustingly copious amounts of jdramas and wading through my VERY EXTENSIVE READINGS.
Which, uh, I need to catch up on property. But property is not, in fact, the issue here. The real work comes in the form of Advanced Readings in Japanese Law (a Japanese course) and Japanese Law & Society (a law course). The latter has a lot of reading and requires a lot of participation on the discussion board which I haven't quite got my head into gear for yet (the discussion board, the reading is fine); the former I won't manage to make a lecture for until next Monday, and requires an AWE-INSPIRING amount of preparatory work, especially for a Japanese course. I'm more comfortable with reading than a lot of Japanese second language speakers are, not to mention I'm a law student, but I kind of wonder how some of the other students-- particularly non law students-- are coping with the preparatory research homework requiring the location of a particular Japanese Act of law followed by translating a provision of own choice and then answering a series of thirty-something questions on it, considering how difficult and time-consuming *I* was finding it.
More to the point I am having trouble browbeating my sleeping patterns back into submission. And procuring Skip Beat; I am having ENORMOUS difficulty with that thanks to the overall uselessness of torrents and the inavailability of direct downloads.
Meanwhile I need to stop writing this entry because I totally know I'm just procrastinating from my reading. ANYWAY.
(On a side note, ASK ME ABOUT MY NEW OBSESSION WITH THE FIRE EMBLEM MANGA. ... or maybe don't.)
Not an ETA because I forgot to hit post anyway: I actually forgot the entire procrastinatory point of this entry, which was that, Japan, as much as I love you in many ways and wish to go back, the result of my readings can only lead me to one conclusion, i.e., YOUR LEGAL SYSTEM IS SO DYSFUNCTIONAL SDJKFLJSDKLFRJSDKLF FIX IIIIT.
Actual ETA, albeit several seconds later: Also, all this reading about prosecutors and their poor cousins, the attorneys, is making me want to read Phoenix Wright fic. Um. :/
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Date: 2009-03-09 08:34 pm (UTC)You know, I remember an evening in Kyoto when you were freaking out and your brother and I were trying to tell you this exact thing.
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Date: 2009-03-10 12:03 pm (UTC)I have been facing that during my Masters. I feel like I'm a fraud and not doing nearly the amount of work I should be... and then I speak to another postgrad who is like 'Wow, you're so organised!' I personally thought that she was super hard working.
That day I discovered that almost everyone in academia feels like a fraud. There's even a special name for it! Impostor syndrome.